work was fun today, even though it was closing. this was the first time i closed with alicia (my boss) which was not that bad as she let me off early because i finished all the cleaning. she such a nice person to work with.

other than that, nothing much but e-poker, sports and work.
i miss the stars in kk.

nothing goes well without the right amount of ...

rick.

blogging from my hp was fun! :p but it took awhile to do it though.

today was badminton night. oh how i love badminton.
nothing is better than to end the day with a game of poker with "e-money'. hahahah funny shit. well, this is how we do it. we all start off with 20000 in our handphones and we slowly add or minus from there. fun huh? so yeah.

sookie is pissed at me for not calling or replying. just because i fell asleep this afternoon on the couch. i just dont know what to do anymore. i dont know how i can make her happy with the lifestyle i have. me going badminton while she sits at home waiting for my call or just fall asleep. sometimes i feel bad for being her boyfriend. it is tough being in a relationship with me. i know that because i am who i am. i am just wondering how long this relationship will last. hopefully longer than expected. i hope.

so yeah. today was fun. had morning shift in the kitchen today and i was doing dessert. dessert is so much fun but when theres nothing to do, theres really nothing to do. so yeah. i am doing closing later, so i hope i wont be bored for 8 hours.

im off to bed.
rick.

im currently blogging frm my hp since my pc is dead.so yea.
I jst saw jac n her bf while driving home nt long ago.i so wanted 2 drive as fast as i can 2 b away frm that red car.sigh.

All i can do nw is wish,wish as hard as i can...a miracle will hopefully happen on my behalf.
rick.

the last email i read just broke me apart.

i mean ... what did i do? seriously ... what did i do?

i just want to start over. i really do. i remember the times where nothing else mattered but the two of us.

booze and weed ... thats what i need.

im off.
rick.

this week has been truely a good workout for me. but maybe its a little too much no?

imagine juggling this, basketball, football, badminton, pool, hanging out with friends, yam cha, movies, late nights, pc being dead, car due for service, a girlfriend and finally ... working every single day.

thats what i would have to go through lets say ... a week?

so yeah ... its been a really long day. well, everyday is a long day to me.

i just miss it when i was back home. waking up late, sleeping late, going to the beach and enjoying the view, climbing up my roof when im bored, cycling up and down and getting hurt while doing it. its all just so ... fun. i miss being a teenager.

i wish i had a birthday cake ...
rick.

wanted to post some of my thailand trip pictures but i have no idea whats wrong with blogspot. its a bitch. sheesh.

anyways, this is how i spent my off day. went to curve to do some stuff. then i went to ikea to get my bowl which i broke last nights. they didnt have the same bowl. what i got is a smaller version and at the same price. what a rip off. then i got me 1/2 a dozen of curry puffs for lunch since pikky 'fong my fui gi'. went back home, finished up my puffs while watching blood diamond. good movie. went to bed since i was sleepy as hell.

i just came back from kl jam asia in desa sri hartamas, which they were having a screening for short films. really interesting how people span out and release their work to the public. iksan and pikky had they films each and they were one of the good ones. other than that, everything was good.

i feel really bad for how im treating my girlfriend. dont ask me how or what i did but i just dont like me for being this way. oh well ... not everyone is perfect as they always say.

rick.

had a morning shift this morning which made my day really long but enjoyable none the less! :)

so i finished work at 5pm, picked sookie up at the lrt station at 7pm, cooked at around 9pm, sent sookie home at 11pm, went to play snooker with mode at racks after that, met ewen there, went to yam cha at tea time at 2am. fun fun fun! i love me long off day! :)

other than that, im done. tired, sleepy, i need rest. my eye bags tell me so!

rick.

nothing interesting. school for scoundrals is a must watch though! :)

other than that, everything is fine. work, relationships, etc, etc.

nothing to blog about ... just want to fill the empty spaces.

rick.

i had the best dream last night i didnt want to wake up from it. it was about jac and i. we looked so happy together. just both of us and nothing else mattered.

but what am i thinking? im in a new relationship and jac is still popping in my head even when im not asleep. i think its the mixed signals i was given. that little sign of hope that would spark something. i dont know. all i can do is assume and well, wait. i dont know if i should wait. waiting is really killing me. i just want to be happy. i just want to be that person that catches her when she falls. i want to be that person that can just sit there and stare at her all day and not get bored of her.

im hallucinating again. this is getting out of hand. even my present relationship might be ending soon if i dont save it. i think i know why i suck in relationships. its because of me. i am the cause of it all. i accuse, point fingers, hate, love, and all the crap but never blame myself for it all. so now i know. it is me who kills all my previous relationships.

she dared me to move.
now i wish i was dead.

rick.

yezzur yezzur!!

today is the 3rd day working for bakerzin. i love working in the morning even though i have to wake up at 7.30am in the morning!! :)

tired as hell.

silent words ... sigh.

rick.

today is the first day i started work at bakerzin 1 utama!

it was interesting as i woke up at 7am and reached work at 7.30am. i expected a jam and there was none! i was suppose to be at work at 8.30am. so i was an hour early. i went in when i saw my boss, which was a cute little lady which is only my shoulders tall and well, cute! she even have a tattoo on her wrist! how cool is that? oh, all of them were wearing jeans and sneakers, while i was wearing my chef pants! i looked like stupid idiot! hahaha they werent even wearing any apron! but we had to wear hair nets though! hahahaha

it was a fun 8 hour shift. i really enjoyed bakerzin. meeting new people and a sabahan which knew the people i knew in my previous work place, hotel istana. its a small world!

tomorrow i start at 12pm. a more relaxed time. i hope ill reach work on time :P

im off.

rick.